✿ New Developments

I expressed the bulk of my ideas to my minister today and we had a good discussion over the possible routes I could take with my alternative-ministry proposals, which included encouragement to consider not just what I am capable of alone, but an ultimate vision that could help to notice and fill in gaps in my capabilities, as well as create a vision that will ultimately be sustainable without me. This pushed the extent of what I had been thinking of, because I tend to keep dreams in my (back) pocket, so that they either happen, or they don't, and then vet my ideas based on how sustainable they are if I was to work on it solo. It is a survival tactic, of course, as well, and what I am used to. However, I believe I can be vulnerable for this dream, this time. I believe I do have the skills I need and the vision and grit to follow through to make something like this a reality. 

In addition, though I had previously thrown aside my expectations of full ordination as a result of following such a path as this, the PCC will likely pass a motion that people be ordained for alternative ministries (ie, things besides being in the pulpit, exclusively) which will mean I could still be eligible for support structures, etc. therein. I had previously only thought as far as creating a non-profit that stands on its own, however this may be a much more promising option. Much grander, long-term visions are now being stirred, which will help guide various phases of development. 

Phase one is still to get things going on a small scale within my own scope of energy and resources. That said, I have considered whipping up a quick Gofundme (or something) and capitalizing on my birthday to see if I can rustle up some money for supplies for the pilot. Sleaze, opportunism, or shrewdness? I am inclined to assume the latter. It's not a sin to use what resources you have at your disposal (Matthew 10:16)... Someday I might even aspire to the dove part.